Like a lot of us, I grew up with little knowledge of what healthy eating looked like. It was my personal interest, turned slight obsession, to study nutrition. Amidst a young modeling career and the pressures of being a young girl coping with trauma, I developed eating disorders that morphed my relationship with food. It seemed that I could never get it quite right. These years were filled with so much self-hate, shame, and guilt it led to physical depletion. It took me nearly 7 years to fully recognize my EDs and 9 years until I quit for good. I am still in recovery and work everyday to heal this part of myself.
In the early process of me healing I tried every diet I could: vegetarian, vegan, paleo, macrobiotic, etc... I was refined sugar-free and gluten-free, yet I still was being faced with digestive issues, chronic fatigue, anxiety, and weight gain.
Epigenetics drew me in specifically because I was interested in identifying which foods are best for MY most optimal body. As I started to learn more about this field of science, I realized that nothing stands alone inside of our bodies. All of our systems are intimately connected; and in order to address our body as a WHOLE being, we must be willing to look at all of the systems and processes as such. With minimal pressure we can apply the innate wisdom our body has unto our everyday lives and become optimal beings through the use of epigenetic health strategies.
This does not mean there is not ebb and flow, or that there will never be adversity in the process. In truth, from my personal experiences, the deeper I dug to uncover the blockages that laid in front of me, even if I laid them there myself, the more my body showed “reactions” (in Chinese medicine it’s called “releases”). I realized that through my perception, I get to decide whether or not that was going to stop me from continuing the process of healing myself, my future AND my past.
I share this because I want to show myself to you in my own healing journey. I want to honor where I was and where I am now. I want to serve as a example of what a path of personal healing looks like. It’s not always pretty, it’s not always forward motion, but it is dedication and compassion.
There are people out here that understand how hard it is to love oneself sometimes; and I have dedicated myself as a person that is here to help you get closer to that.
I sincerely thank you for reading.